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01:20 pm: WOW

I FINALLY have a design job.

Freaking 2 years after I graduate I'm finally able to land a job using my degree.
Whoohoo!!!!
I'll be working for City Weekly magazine in Salt Lake City. www.slweekly.com

Well, there goes my free rent, because I'll have to resign from being full time leasing agent at the apartment complex I work at. I really hope I can stay part time or something so that I at least get half price rent. But I dunno how that will work out.

And I'm close enough to ride a bike, or even walk. Which I'll definitely do, because the cheapest parking garage is $40 a month. Since I live practically downtown anyway, I don't even need my car anymore. heh. I won't have to worry about buying much gas for the rest of the summer.

I need to go out and buy a bike lock.

10:15 am: If I've said it once, I've said it a million times, 9/11 was planned and executed by our own "trustworthy" government.
9/11 was basically a big joke. A total farce.

If after watching this film you aren't convinced beyond a reasonable doubt that 9/11 was a total farce, then I don't know what else to say, other than I tried.

YOU OWE IT TO YOURSELF,
PLEASE watch this video
http://www.seeloosechange.com

Beyond a Reasonable Doubt - The highest level of proof required to win a case. Necessary to get a guilty verdict in criminal cases. see reasonable doubt.

The level of certainty a juror must have to find a defendant guilty of a crime. A real doubt, based upon reason and common sense after careful and impartial consideration of all the evidence, or lack of evidence, in a case.

Proof beyond a reasonable doubt, therefore, is proof of such a convincing character that you would be willing to rely and act upon it without hesitation in the most important of your own affairs. However, it does not mean an absolute certainty.

fact
n.

1. Knowledge or information based on real occurrences: an account based on fact; a blur of fact and fancy.
2.
1. Something demonstrated to exist or known to have existed: Genetic engineering is now a fact. That Chaucer was a real person is an undisputed fact.
2. A real occurrence; an event: had to prove the facts of the case.
3. Something believed to be true or real: a document laced with mistaken facts.
3. A thing that has been done, especially a crime: an accessory before the fact.
4. Law. The aspect of a case at law comprising events determined by evidence: The jury made a finding of fact.


conspiracy theory
n.

A theory seeking to explain a disputed case or matter as a plot by a secret group or alliance rather than an individual or isolated act.



Now, a conspiracy THEORY is usually just that, a theory. When you can provide the information and provide the facts of the matter to prove BEYOND A REASONABLE DOUBT that said theory is TRUE, then it is no longer a THEORY. I, Charlie Sheen, and MANY many other people in America are beginning to realize that we have been had. 9/11 was pretty much a big fucking JOKE.

I am a very intuitive person. I knew for a long time that 9/11 was a total farce. I have been doing the research for over a year now, literally every other day. Just doing the research on my own and using the internet, I have been able to find most of the information on the video up until this point. I am grateful there are people out there with the talent and skills to put together documentaries such as these. And I am glad I found this video yesterday, because I couldn't have put it better myself.

I made my boyfriend watch it, and up until yesterday, he always scoffed at my "conspiracy theories" but by the middle of the video, his jaw had dropped a couple times, and by the end of the video he was yelling "THEY FUCKING PLANNED IT! Our government fucking did it."
Trust me, he's a hard person to sell.

Are you going to watch it?

Are you brave enough to see?
Would you bite the hand that feeds?

http://www.seeloosechange.com

12:47 pm: Well so far, this has been the best month ever. Well, not ever, but it's been pretty damn good. After April finally ended and all the bullshit finished, things got SO much better. A complete 180.

I have free rent right now. I got a job as a Leasing Agent at an apartment complex, and the job is totally laid back and chill.
Plus, the lady who interviewed me half a year ago for the Design job at City Weekly emailed me this past Friday asking me if I was still interested because the girl she hired instead of me is moving to New Zealand. So I MAY FINALLY have a job using my degree. I'm crossing my fingers.

Plus I got a kitten. She is so cute.

And I cut my hair, I was so bored of it, so I was inspired by Aeon Flux's hair...

08:01 am: I had a fucked up dream the other night.

I was in a house doing dishes or something, and there was a window right above the sink. It was a nice day out, probably early afternoon. Then all of a sudden I hear a huge boom like something blew up very fucking loud very far away, like a nuclear explosion, and the walls in the house shook and the curtains blew a little bit. And I thought "Oh shit, it's finally starting"

So I'm gathering up survival gear, packing clothes, etc.

Then I go outside and look at the sky.
I see our sun, and I see a second sphere next to it, it looked like a huge red planet reflecting the light from the sun.
Aaron was with me and I pointed it out to him in the sky.

And then I heard something say "When there are two suns, it means the AntiChrist is rising."

Then I woke up.
I was so glad that was a dream.

That's the second dream I've had this month with a nuclear explosion of some sort.

03:52 pm: Ohhhh man, what a week
What a week


Last weekend, My best friend from junior high and high school came to visit me in Utah again. We went skiing, and skied the last day of Alta. We also took a day trip to Moab. It was fun.

Hah, then the day after she left, I left the house to do some errands, and when I came home I saw a yellow notice stuck on the door.
Our electricity was turned off
Mother fucker!!!

The electricity was in Katie's name, and when they were leaving we asked what we were going to do about the electric. She said "Oh, I'll take care of it since it's in my name. If you could just give me a few bucks for the last bill that would be great."
So we all gave her a little money to cover the last month's bill.

I was a little worried that it would take her a while to pay it off since she was already behind a month even though we always gave her money EVERY MONTH. There should have been no reason why it was even behind in the first place. But I figured she'd take care of it. Well that was a mistake. I remember a couple months ago Katie had gotten behind, and was hiding the statements. She gave some bullshit reason that since she paid online she got online statements now and they stopped coming to the house. I thought that sounded fishy.
So when I noticed the next bill in the mail I opened it up and noticed it was a month behind, almost two months behind. I remember thinking "why the HELL is Katie buying bird feeders when she's a month behind on the bill!??

So yeah, our power went out, we couldn't cook anything since we had an electric stove. We put all our food in coolers. Somehow I managed to save everything.

Oh yeah, and when I called Aaron with the news, I got some more bad news, in the same phone call he told me that one of our good friends Tara was dead. I couldn't believe it. She was my roommate up at Alta last winter, and she was like the only girl here in Utah that I liked. (most Utah chicks are boy crazy sluts by the way)
She died of a heart attack. But the thing that caused the heart attack was fucked. I guess she was in California with some new friend she made, and she took some acid, had a really bad reaction and had to be hospitalized. She was in the hospital for a week and then had cardiac arrest. She was a fragile little thing too. Every season at Alta she would end up breaking something. Last season she blew out both knees. This season she broke her collar bone and her wrist. She also had Scoliosis. I always got the impression she was fragile. She wasn't a stranger to drugs, she smoked weed, did shrooms, but I don't think she ever got into the harder stuff and that's what killed her. Her body couldn't handle it.
That really sucks. I really felt like I needed to talk to her. She mentioned a month earlier that she needed to talk to me because I was the only person that understood what she was talking about. Someone relayed the message to me, but I was busy. I wish I would have called her. I even got her number, but I was waiting for a free afternoon.

I guess it's too late now.

So then the same day the power was shut off, I went up to Alta to stay the night and help out with the deep clean of the restaurant. Scrubbing floors, washing walls, packing stuff up for the summer, etc.

The next day my car battery is dead.
MOTHER FUCKER!!
What else could go wrong?
I KNOW I didn't leave a damn thing on in that car.
The battery was so dead, it wouldn't even hold a charge.
I had to buy a new one, and the dealership tested the alternator, and at least that was good.

But luckily we were able to move into our new apartment already.
It's funny because it took a week for Dan to finally pay the electric bill. Nope, Katie couldn't pay it of course. Her phone is off too because she can't pay it. She's out of money, and doesn't have a job yet in Illinois. I wonder who's going to pay her car payments. I really doubt she'll get a job, she'll just expect Dan to take care of everything because that's the kind of person she is, a mooch.
But I heard Dan is pissed at her, especially since we all gave her the money for it.
Hmm, I wonder what his reaction would be if he ever found out she planned that pregnancy....
But by the time the electric was finally turned on yesterday, we were packing up our very last load and bringing it to the new place.


Hmmmm, what else is new, oh yeah. My cell phone just died today or something. I can't even shut it off. I was noticing that some of the menu thumbnails were slowly disappearing one by one, then earlier today none of them were showing up, then a little while later my phone is dead. Won't light up, won't respond to anything, it won't even turn off. Fucking T-mobile better replace it of fix it because I didn't do anything to it.

Sometimes I feel like I'm sucking all the energy out of everything around me.
That's what it's been feeling like lately
That and every goddamn April is fucked up.
Last April all sorts of fucked up shit happened in my life, and it's the same story this April.

06:00 pm: Sweeeeeet!! We found a new apartment. A really nice two bedroom for $225 a month. How the hell did I do that? I got a part time position as a leasing agent at an apartment complex. They give you half off of the employee rate. Plus you can earn the rest of your rent with commission from the leases. Sweeeeet! Now since I have my foot in the door, I can eventually become an apartment manager where they give you free rent plus salary, which was the position I originally applied for, but I'll take the part time job. It's better than nothing. This is perfect, because my dream job someday is to buy old houses and fix them up and sell em. I would even like to get into renting out houses, so this would teach me a lot.


I've been sort of nervous lately because this is a busy month where everything is changing. I gotta juggle everything and try to find the best jobs, and the best deals on apartments etc. Yesterday I just finished my last day at the ski rental shop, and my last day at Alta was today. And I was sort of worried that I wouldn't find a good part time job yet.

I already worked like 2 days for some crappy part time job where you go door to door trying to set up free water quality tests, and then you earn extra money if the salesman sells them a water softener. But that job sucked.

I also found a job with Americorp which is a part of Citigroup. This job sounds really promising. They will be training me how to become a financial advisor. Eventually I will be able to show families how they can get out of debt by switching or changing their mortgage or refinancing their debt into their mortgages and then they can use that extra money to put into a retirement plan and get a savings established so that they will be set for life.

But for now It starts off with just a mortgaging license which I should be getting in a couple days. I guess for every mortgage you do, you get $500, then once you get a Life Insurance license you then make $1000 for every mortgage you do. Then I will be getting one more license after that. I forget what it is. And the company sounds really great. They're going to be opening up a lot of offices in he next couple of years and they are going to help me and train me to be a team leader with 7-8 people working for me, and eventually move to my own office in maybe 2-3 years, and then get official ownership papers like 5 years after that. Then I can sell the office or do whatever I want with it. Finally I might maybe have a career going for me. I might even make $150,000 a year.
But for now I have a feeling it's going to be pretty slow. Hell, I don't even know when the first time I'll get paid. I'm still training right now.

Then eventually I can do my dream job of fixing up old houses and designing. Hell, I'll even be able to paint full time without having to have a full time job too just to get by.
Sweeeeet.


I also picked up another part time job that is only for about a month and a half. It pays $10.50 an hour and all I pretty much have to do is go into stores and make sure the display cases for Frito Lay is organized exactly how they want it. But the catch is the hours are from 3am to 9am 2-3 days a week. I'll do that, especially since it's only for a month and a half. And it will get me by in the meantime until I start getting paid from Americorp. They said the next gig will probably be for Home Depot, and after that they'll get more gigs. If the hours still suck, I won't do it.


I'm one of those people that works hard, and I'm on top of my shit.
As you can see, I already have 3 jobs lined up.
I would really like to be successful someday so that I can stop having to work so damn hard just to "get by."

02:16 pm: You know how they always say never live with your friends? Well I completely forgot about that common knowledge when I went to share a house with my boyfriend and another couple.


That was a huge mistake, now we practically all hate each other.

Couple against couple.

They lived like animals.
They would bitch at my boyfriend and I if we ever left any pots or dishes on the counters, yet it was okay for them to do it all the damn time and leave huge messes for days. I wasn't about to clean up THEIR mess since they had such qualms about cleaning up mine.

They have no respect for anyone's belongings.
Somehow they ended up using one of my blankets for a couple months, and I get it back a week ago and there is cigarette burns all over it. Some an inch wide, burnt all the way through. Thank god they didn't burn the house down.
There have been other things they have ruined, but I forget.

Katie likes to steal. She is a huge klepto, but plays like she is so innocent. What really surprises me is that she would steal from her own roommate. I had to watch her like a hawk when she was packing up her things from the kitchen. But she did end up stealing some things: my nice can opener, a nice serving spoon, and some tupperware. I don't give a fuck about those, I can go to the dollar store and buy some more.
But they were going to steal my big aloe plant. That thing was tiny when I got it, and it flourished and is now huge. When we moved here the plant really needed to be replanted in a bigger pot. I was broke as a joke when we moved in and was waiting until I had enough money to buy a pot. So before I knew it, Dan had replanted it in a bigger pot. I thought that was really cool of him. The plant lived outside, and I forgot that aloe plants cannot take direct sunlight like that, so it had gotten sunburnt and a bit dehydrated. It was a darkish red color. So I brought it inside and let them "enjoy" it in their living room since it got decent sunlight. They ended up replanting it again in a huge pot they bought. I asked them "What are we going to do when we move out? Should I replant it in my own pot?"
Them: "Well we were figuring we would keep it since we have been taking care of it, it was going to die anyway"

me: WHAT?? Umm no. We ended up arguing about it, and they said they would buy me a new one. Whatever.

The day before they were going to leave, they had plans to pick up the trailer and pack it up with everything. Still no replacement plant at this time, and I knew they would pack up my plant. So that morning I replanted it in my own pot and took it with me to work.

They were pissed about it.
I guess Dan made a top ten list of all the reasons why he hated me and was going to lay it on me later that night. Over a stupid plant? But he didn't.

What is God's name gives them the audacity to think they can just take my plant?

Then as Aaron and I were leaving that night I overheard Katie say on the phone "Guess what this BITCH did today"
I was like "What?? It wasn't your plant so why are you worried about it?"

And this started a HUGE screaming fight.
I don't fight like that.


Oh yeah, and she was about to steal one of my sweatshirts, and a pair of cute dress shoes. But I got those back too.

Oh Yeah, and they have two cats, one of which LOVED me. It put up a huge fight to leave the house. It definitely didn't want to go. I'm going to miss it SOO much. But their cats barfed all over the house and no one ever cleaned it up. It would sit there for weeks and weeks. I live downstairs in the basement, so I will for sure clean it up if it's down here, but upstairs is their territory. They were in charge of the upstairs, and it was always trashed.


Oh yeah, and she is the type who ALWAYS gets whatever SHE wants. I hate those kind of girls and it has taken me this long to realize what type of person she really is.
She "accidently" got pregnant, and now he's really stuck with her. I know she planned it because all the clues line up, she's had babies on her mind for a long time now, she had been looking up pregnancy websites a year ago (my boyfriend checks the history and was freaking out because he thought I was looking it up) and her dream job is to be a housewife, a young mom.
blech.


They throw their cigarett butts all over the yard.
They just throw things into the dishwasher, some upside down so they just fill with water rather than get clean.
They eat my food and pretend like they don't know where it went.
Whenever they run out of toilet paper they come down and steal mine for a good couple weeks until they finally get around to buying some of their own.
They would leave resin/ash piles from their pipes on my computer desk everyday.
No one would ever buy milk, bread, butter, or dish detergent except me. I would wait for days and weeks to see if anyone else would ever pitch in, but no one would.
They just didn't care.

Ugh, but why did it have to go out with a bang?
I didn't want it to end this way.
Oh well.
They were never good friends to us anyway.
But I do know that we'd all still be friends if we never lived with each other.
We were all way too passive aggressive.
Rather than talking about anything when there was a tiny problem, everyone would just let it bug them and escalate into major problems.

Good fucking riddance though.

08:46 pm: I know everyone is fed up with what is going on in our world right now. It seems everything is heading towards chaos. Every day it seems something crazy and new happened, someone just sold something off overseas, Immigrants protesting, more bombs going off. No one can agree as to why we are overseas, etc.
It just all seems so incredibly stupid and bizarre, like everyone’s going crazy!


When something is conceived to be incredibly stupid and bizarre, if you don’t have the idea of what the goal is then it SEEMS chaotic and bizarre

THE GOAL IS A GLOBALLY CENTRALIZED STATE WITH A ONE WORLD GOVERNMENT, world central bank, world army, world currency, microchipped population connected to a global computer. That is the goal.

Now to do that, you have to destroy nations, particularly you have to destroy super powers. Because if you have super powers in the world, the centralized world government cannot dictate to a super power that has the military economic might to say “Excuse me, not doing it, ok, go away.” So you need to destroy all power that can confront your power, the power that you want to centrally control.

So America is being systematically destroyed. Commercially, Economically, Militarily.
We are seeing it now.

We are being weakened from the inside out.

They want a World War III, out of which they will say “To stop this from ever happening again, we need to have a world government and centralization of control to stop this conflict on this scale from ever happening again.”

It is a global version of what happened after WWII, when they said “to stop this from ever happening again, we must have…” and in came the United Nations, in came all these centralizations of global power that happened as a result of the second world war.

The selling of America’s assets to forces outside of America so that our country increasingly, by the day by the week, ceases to have more and more control of it’s own internal destiny. That control is being given away more and more to outside forces.

This is why our ports are being sold off, our jobs are going overseas, corporations are going overseas.
This is why our borders are left wide open. They WANT the immigrants to come into our country.
They need to weaken us from the inside out.

Borders have come down in Europe as a result of the European Union.

We have to look at the big picture here and realize how it all comes into play.
Countries and the sense of “nationhood” is a against centralization of global power. And the removal of sovereign choice within smaller areas of the world, instead of it being dictated to everyone from a central point. Therefore nationhood and a sense of nationhood, a sense of unique culture has to go to bring about this global society. It is not based on cooperation, but based on centralization of control.

You have to connect the dots.
You can’t see the whole forest when the big tree is blocking your view.

It’s like looking at a piece of paper, there’s dots all over it, and each individual dot might be interesting in itself.
But when you start to connect the dots you can start to see the whole picture.

All these things, immigration across the borders where no one has been doing anything about it, the contracts being given to the Chinese, Arabs, and other foreign forces outside our country, all these things are connected to the same goal; Centralization of Power. That is what we must understand, what the goal is. Centralization of Power and the end of power to the people, the end of Democracy. A One World Dictatorship is what we are headed for very fast.

If we keep going on the road we are going now, we will live in a global fascist state within a few short years, and our children will live in this for much longer than we will. It will be a centralized Orwellian nightmare.
If we get off our backsides, more importantly we get off our knees and start to address this, and start to open our minds and brake the concrete rigidity from our thoughts and possibilities and sense of deception, then we can transform this apparent inevitable outcome into something very different. Because we the people as a whole are the system that is controlling us. If we don’t cooperate with it, there is no system.

And when people say they are law abiding citizens, well that’s very nice and all, but hold on a second. They are abiders of EVERY law? I mean, if we are going to be law abiding citizens, we might as well give up, because what it means is that laws are going to be passed by corrupt politicians and merely become law because there are enough hands in the air or some bill is signed by the President. And then we have to abide by these laws even though they are taking our freedoms away by the day.
NO!
We need to stop cooperating with the laws that are there NOT to make society a better and nicer place to live, they are there to control, to impose, to dictate, to take freedoms away. We have to stand up and say ENOUGH! We’re not having it.
What would happen if enough people do this? What would happen if the people as a whole said “Sorry, no way, we’re not doing it!”
They have no power.
People need to do what they know is right.

05:49 pm: I feel like I'm at a weird stage in my life right now.

Lots of things have been changing, and are going to still be changing for the next month.
My "theme" this spring has been "Out with the old, in with the new"
Bought some new shoes, new sandals, new car, new hair straightening iron, new socks, and I need some new jeans, and new glasses.
Plus next month Aaron and I will be moving into a new apartment. Oh yeah, and ski season will be over in two weeks, so I'll be getting a new job too.

Dan and Katie are moving out in a week. They're heading back to Illinois. Good riddance. It was a mistake to live with them. They have absolutely no respect for their roommates, no respect for anything in the house, or other people's personal items. I fucking hate that. The past year living with them has been weird. It's had its ups and downs.
They have 2 cats, one is named Ruca which I love and she loves me and always sleeps with me and hangs around me. I think she thinks of me as her owner rather than Dan and Katie. Or at least as the cool "aunt" she can just chill with. I'm sad KittyRuca will be leaving. Then they had another cat, Timpy, that was a very sickly cat. I think Timpy represented what our relationship was between Aaron & I, and Dan & Katie. They got the cat within a few days or weeks when we first moved into the house. I went with them to get it. I didn't like it from the start. It wasn't alert and when you held it, it squirmed away from you. On the way home I noticed its nose was runny. Gradually over the months the cat developed severe chronic nasal congestion. You could hear the cat every time it breathed from across the house. The cat was annoying and gross. I think only Katie liked it. I felt sorry for it, but I just didn't like it. The cat was a year old, but still looked like a little runt. Then a couple weeks ago, Dan and Katie brought it to a different vet, and they realized it had a huge tumor growing on it's tongue that was restricting its breathing. Either they could do some surgery on it and spend tons of money, or put it to sleep, because it would not survive much longer. So they put it to sleep a week ago.
That cat's life definitely signified how the relationship between us two couples deteriorated.

Funny thing is, the day they found out they "might" have to put Timpy to sleep they already went out and bought a replacement kitten.




I think part of the reason why I feel weird is that I think our civilization is on the verge of "something"
Something that will change our lives big time.
What?
Well, I have a few ideas, and this song pretty much sums up everything I have been researching for the past year, and what my views are of this planet and of this life.

NIN - The Hand That Feeds

You're keeping in step
In the line
Got your chin held high and you feel just fine
Because you do
What you're told
But inside your heart it is black and it's hollow and it's cold

Just how deep do you believe?
Will you bite the hand that feeds?
Will you chew until it bleeds?
Can you get up off your knees?
Are you brave enough to see?
Do you want to change it?

What if this whole crusade's
A charade
And behind it all there's a price to be paid
For the blood
On which we dine
Justified in the name of the holy and the divine

Just how deep do you believe?
Will you bite the hand that feeds?
Will you chew until it bleeds?
Can you get up off your knees?
Are you brave enough to see?
Do you want to change it?

So naive
I keep holding on to what I want to believe
I can see
But I keep holding on and on and on and on

Will you bite the hand that feeds you?
Will you stay down on your knees?

08:00 pm: OH

My

God

I bought a car the other day. This is the first big purchase I've made.

A 2000 Pontiac Grand Am

Except mine is silver, has a black bra and tinted windows. It is definitely the nicest car I've ever owned. I love it. It definitely scoots too. I just hope I don't have to resort to just eating Ramen.

Dammit. I think I may have pink eye. I dunno how the fuck I got it, but I'm pissed. I can't afford to visit a doctor just so he can pretty much tell me that yes I do indeed have pink eye (which I already know). So it would pretty much be to just get a prescription. That is such a waste. Pink eye drops should be something you can easily get over the counter. I mean, when you have the annoying as fuck symptoms it doesn't take a rocket scientist to realize what the diagnosis is.
But It may be all good. A girl from work is going to see if her dad can phone a presription in for me. That would be great if that happens.

11:10 am: I made homemade chicken noodle soup last night, and it was SOOOO good! The best thing about it is I made it in a huge pot and I have enough leftovers to last me numerous days.
It's so nice cooking your own food from scratch. I've gotten used to making those quick dinners that come in a single box, mainly because it's super cheap, and mainly because when I buy seperate ingredients for food they get eaten up by my roommates, and I really can't afford to feed them all the time. They're the type of roommates who never buy milk, garbage bags, butter, etc. I feel like I'm always the one who buys those things.
Which is another reason why I am SOOOO looking forward to just me an Aaron living together ALONE. Come May 1 we'll finally be free of roommates! No more messes that aren't mine, and no more having to worry if someone will eat my last Totinos pizza.

And FUCK. I accidently stepped on my good pair of glasses last week. They're still wearable, and you can't notice anything funny when i wear them, but they're all janky now, and don't fold properly. My second pair of glasses are fine, except they are not as flattering on my face, and they are missing a nose piece. I do need a slightly stronger prescription, so it's about time I get new glasses, but I really don't want to dish out the money right now. Ugh.

12:37 pm: I found a fucking sweet vehicle I wanted. A 1998 Dodge Durango, 4w4, towing hook-up, 88k miles, and only $10,800. It was a sweet deal. And they even would have given me $1000 trade for my shitmobile, which was very surprising. But even with my immaculate credit, the guy could only work out just barely over $200 a month payments, which I can't afford right now. So either I need to go much cheaper, or I need to save big time for a bigger downpayment. Plus I need to work on getting rid of some bills. I was thinking about it, and I have like 9 bills a month that I pay, which I can whittle down to 6 in just a few months. Ugh. I need a fucking better job. A fucking college degree, and I'm still living paycheck to paycheck, just barely making a Grand a month.
I had a job interview last week at a design firm, so I'll be calling them today to find out what the deal is.

Hell, if I get a new job that pays at least $10, then I can go back and get that vehicle.

06:55 pm: Doh! My car died today. I thought "this is it, it has finally died"
It jsut turned off while I was driving it, one second I was giving it gas, and then it seemed like it just clicked off and then I wasn't getting anything. I was pumping the pedal and nothing was happening. I just thought, "shit, not here right in the middle of the road." I pulled into the middle turning lane to get out of the way, and luckily there was a break in the traffic at the perfect time and I turned into the parking lot. The steering wheel was really hard to turn, and the brakes were really hard to push. I guess I lost vaccuum pressure which is what the mechanic told me later on.

I tried starting it like 20 times, it was trying to turn over, but nothing was happening. Then I let it sit for a couple minutes tried it again and it turned over! Whew. Thank God. Then I was able to drive it two blocks to a mechanic shop.
But they said they couldn't find anything. They said they'll look at it more thoroughly tomorrow morning to see what's up, but that pretty much they can't tell what is wrong unless it dies out on them and they experience it. They must really suck, because usually a good mechanic can tell what's wrong.
Oh well, if they can't find anything, I am seriously going to look at buying a used car and see if I can trade it in for anything. Something would be better than nothing.

08:35 pm: Wow, so my roommate is pregnant.
She really has a knack for making really dumb mistakes.
She always complains about being broke, but now it looks like she'll be broke for the next 18 years.
Katie and Dan never used any sort of birth control, they just used the pull-out method. A couple months ago she told me that she had gotten pregnant but had a miscarriage and that it was God's way of telling her she wasn't ready to have a baby, and that she was going to go on birth control after that.
Then I find out a month ago that she's 2 months pregnant and that they're keeping it (which is good because abortion is murder) but whatever happened to going on birth control????? I overheard her talking about how it was God's decision that she was ready to have a baby.

Wait a minute, I'm sorry, but when you are having premarital sex which I'm sure God still doesn't approve of, God does not act as birth control to keep you from getting pregnant until he thinks you're "ready." That miscarriage was the warning. They didn't take heed of the warning and now they've got to deal with the consequences.

And I have a sneaking suspicion that she PLANNED it. I dunno, but everything about it just seems really fishy to me. I mean, Aaron and I have noticed this past summer that a bunch of pregnancy websites were being visited, we noticed them in the internet history files. Two of Katie's and Dan's friends back in Illinois have gotten married, and both have babies on the way, and me thinks that Katie doesn't want to be left out. She probably already has play dates planned out in her head. Katie would always gush about how she would love to be a young mom, and that her only calling in life is to be a housewife and a mom. She really expects to stay at home and not work - in this day and age, good luck with that. And she would always talk about how if she got pregnant, her parents always told her she didn't HAVE to marry the guy who impregnated her. And the fact that she got pregnant in the first place, had a miscarriage, and now she's pregnant again. And once she had a job that provided health insurance, she signed up for it, maybe with the thought of being able to use it...

I dunno. I just think it was a REALLY dumb mistake. She can't even take care of her two cats, and they definitely cannot keep up on their bills. I'm really worried they are going to have to go on welfare and be dependent on the government. But whatever, it's their life.

Oh yeah, and they're moving back to Illinois this May, so they are going to be gone anyways.
And I know Aaron is really pissed about it. He really hates Katie and was always hoping she would cheat on Dan or something so that he would realize how much of a coniving sneak she is. But now that she definitely has her hooks in Dan, Aaron has pretty much given up.

Enough about them.
I'll post about me later tonight or tomorrow

08:00 pm: eh, i've totally lost interest in this journal for now. Right now I am doing way too much inbetween working 44+ hours a week, skiing, and doing other things, It feels more like a chore now to post in this journal. Maybe I'll take it up again in a few months. We'll see

11:44 am: doesn't anyone SEE??
I know mankind is destroying this planet, but I refuse to be
enslaved. I am sick of the lies and the New World Order agenda. Maybe
the force driving it is partly mankind's own blindness. If you sense your
freedoms are being revoked, you are not mistaken.

After the last element of gun control is implemented, all freedoms
will be removed within a ten year period. Never surrender your
weapons. I wish this was not happening and I have had many sleepless
nights, but for me I cannot stand it anymore. Never believe that the
One World government is good for us. Observe the dismantling of
nations now and how the United Nations is taking over.

11:08 am: In the land of the blind, the one eyed man is locked up in an insane asylum for 'seeing things.'

01:34 pm: The rich just get richer, and the poor get poorer.

I just got home from Chicago yesterday. I went back home for the weekend for my mom's wedding. While I was there I went to go close my savings and checking accounts there, and I was expecting to get over $100, but to my dismay, I only had like a total of $87. Apparently some mysterious company in Draper, UT automatically withdrew $24.77 from my checking account in August, which caused me to overdraft and they bank withdrew the rest from my savings. I hadn't used my checking account in probably 10 months!!! I was pissed. I never authorized any automatic withdrawal, luckily the phone number for the company was listed on the invoice the banker printed up for me. So I call the number and it's some automated system, and supposedly I can speak to representatives, but when I let it ring for about 5 minutes, I get an answering machine. I went through all the differen options. I called like 6 times and never got a person. I left a message the other day explaining the situation and asking for a callback, then today I was calling a couple times and left a message saying I wanted to use their services in hopes that they'll call me back to scam another sucker. Still no callback. I searched all over the web for this company "Legal Services" or "Household Savers" in Draper Utah and no luck. I'm going to be checking the phone book next. I gotta find out where this company is located so I can go straight there and bitch to someone in person. Afterall, it's in the same freaking town I live in.

I had $550 saved up to buy my season ski pass from a friend of a friend(full price for a season pass is $999), but I realized that I just can't afford to dish out all that money when I have more important things to spend it on. So to solve getting my season pass, I just got a part time job up at the ski resort, and now I can use the money to renew my license plates (I've been driving on expired plates for 3 months now) and I need to get my serpentine belt replaced which will cost me about $150. That sucks because most serpentine belts don't need to be replaced by a mechanic, but with my car I need to go to one because the way my engine is set up they need a special machine to hold the engine up in place while they replace the belt. Stupid car. Oh yeah, I need to get chains for my tires too. And I need to get a bus schedule, because I don't want to drive my car up the canyon all the time.

Ugh.

So I STILL can't quit Sprint just yet. I one more week left to work there. My other two jobs don't start for at least another week.

I can't wait until the resorts open. I don't spend hardly ANY money because I spend all my free time skiing, and I'll be able to eat most of my meals up there too. All I'll really need to spend money on is gas and rent.

02:52 pm: I went skiing today!!
But it really sucked

I mean, REALLY sucked.

There isn't nearly enough snow up there yet.
It looks like they pushed back opening day to the 17th when I just checked the website now. I could have sworn it was originally going to be this weekend. But good thing too, because people would be scraping their skis on rocks and bushes if they opened up the resort.
It's really looking pitiful up there.

Last year back in October, they were calling their plow crew and asking them if they could come weeks early because they were getting so much snow up there. But now it's just a week until opening day, and nothing is covered yet. At the base, what would normally be under snow is all mud and gravel, a bit ways up the slopes there's maybe a foot of snow at it's deepest. Rocks poking out everywhere, bushes sticking out all over the place, it's warm up there too you can easily walk around with just a sweatshirt on.

Aaron and Dan moved up there a couple days ago since all the employees are getting ready to work. I visited Aaron last night. It's a whole new crew of kids at the restaurant. I would have thought SOME people would returned for a second year, but only two of the managers returned. So Aaron got a manger job too. After hanging out there last night, I skied down today, I didn't care if the conditions sucked. I just needed to feel the feeling of sliding down the slope again. I'm having more and more skiing dreams lately, and I can't wait. Heh, but the whole time I was skiing down, It was all bumpy and rock hard. I kept catching my edges on hard knobs of snow, and had to avoid rocks and scraggly bushes. Heh, I felt so wobbly too, either I lost a bit of skiing ability over the summer, or the terrain was just that bad.

10:20 pm: Marijuana is legal in Denver, CO
http://www.cannabisculture.com/articles/4570.html
http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20051028/ap_on_re_us/pot_vote


Looks like I'm going to have to make sure to visit Denver at some point. Maybe take a little ski trip over there sometime...